...my first day back at work and away from my son since we brought him home from the hospital. As expected leaving him at daycare yesterday sucked hard but I held it together and didn't cry until I hit the car. Thankfully Hunter is too young to get upset when I leave him otherwise I don't know how I would have walked out the door.
I cried all the way to work but once I got there it was easier. My coworkers were all very excited to have me back (and not just because it will now relieve some of their workload). And to be honest it was nice to be back around other adults besides my husband and to be able to leisurely eat my lunch without worrying about my child waking up and needing me.
My coworkers also helped me rearrange my office using my filing cabinet and a partition so that I now have a corner where I can pump during the day without being seen if someone happened to walk in without knocking first and so that people walking by outside can't see me through my window since we're on the first floor. I did almost burst into tears when I got into the car last night and saw that one of the ziplock milk storage bags that was holding 6ozs of liquid gold had leaked and I had lost ALL but half an ounce. I literally cried over spilled milk but as any breastfeeding/pumping mama knows you work hard for that milk. That was a meal and a half for my son that I had lost because I didn't close the bag well. But guess who won't be making that mistake again!
Kristian was able to pick him up at 3pm and according to the ladies there Hunter did great. He was awake most of the day and was happy and well behaved. They gave us his report of all his activity, how much he ate and the number of diapers he went through. He got home and took a 2 hour nap so I guess he was worn out. He also slept pretty well last night so that was nice. Dropping him off this morning was easier though I try to do it quickly so I don't have time to get upset.
Hopefully it will continue to get easier and according to my boss I should be pretty busy in the upcoming months so I may not even have much time to sit around and miss him during the day.