Loss

Two weeks ago, the day before Hunters 3rd birthday I miscarried our second child. It was a heartbreaking loss that came only a couple weeks after finding out I was pregnant and after about 7 months of trying to get pregnant. It happened naturally while I was at home and later confirmed at the hospital. It was only a few days earlier that we had excitedly shared the news with our immediate family for Christmas. The timing was a bit of a punch in the gut (not that there is ever a good time for this sort of thing), because exactly 3 years earlier we had been heading to the same hospital to start the process of having a baby and here we were 3 years later on the same night, going to the same hospital to confirm the loss of another. I could have waited until the next day to confirm at my doctors office but I refused to get bad news on Hunters birthday. I didn't want this to in anyway tarnish his special day.

While this loss as been hard we are trying to stay positive. At least I was able to get pregnant again, which for a while I had worried wouldn't happen.  And as far as miscarriages go, if you are going to have one this was probably the best scenario for it to happen in....I was at home (on vacation from work), it happened early (before we had told EVERYONE) and it happened naturally (no surgery needed). The doctor also didn't see any reason why we couldn't try again. So we will...try again...and hopefully we will get some happy news again soon and bring home another healthy baby. And if not, we are still incredibly blessed to have our amazing son who has brought us both so much joy and comfort through this whole process. We have also grown so much closer as a couple, my husband as been truly amazing the last few weeks and I couldn't be more grateful.