Tuesday, January 13, 2015

Loss

Two weeks ago, the day before Hunters 3rd birthday I miscarried our second child. It was a heartbreaking loss that came only a couple weeks after finding out I was pregnant and after about 7 months of trying to get pregnant. It happened naturally while I was at home and later confirmed at the hospital. It was only a few days earlier that we had excitedly shared the news with our immediate family for Christmas. The timing was a bit of a punch in the gut (not that there is ever a good time for this sort of thing), because exactly 3 years earlier we had been heading to the same hospital to start the process of having a baby and here we were 3 years later on the same night, going to the same hospital to confirm the loss of another. I could have waited until the next day to confirm at my doctors office but I refused to get bad news on Hunters birthday. I didn't want this to in anyway tarnish his special day.

While this loss as been hard we are trying to stay positive. At least I was able to get pregnant again, which for a while I had worried wouldn't happen.  And as far as miscarriages go, if you are going to have one this was probably the best scenario for it to happen in....I was at home (on vacation from work), it happened early (before we had told EVERYONE) and it happened naturally (no surgery needed). The doctor also didn't see any reason why we couldn't try again. So we will...try again...and hopefully we will get some happy news again soon and bring home another healthy baby. And if not, we are still incredibly blessed to have our amazing son who has brought us both so much joy and comfort through this whole process. We have also grown so much closer as a couple, my husband as been truly amazing the last few weeks and I couldn't be more grateful.

23 comments:

Lacey Bean said...

I'm so so sorry. :(

K said...

Shannon, I am so so sorry to hear this! I know that nothing can be said to make this any better, but I just wanted you to know that I am thinking of you and your family during this difficult time. I know all too well the feelings you are going through, having been through it myself. If you ever need anyone to talk to, please don't hesitate to email me. I know it helped sometimes to be able to talk to people who had been through it. Sending thoughts and prayers your way.

Shannon said...

I am so so so so sorry to hear of this.

Just like how Hunter and Alex had a similar birth story and a week in the NICU---

I actually had a miscarriage the day after Christmas in 2010. We ended up getting pregnant the month after with our T-Bird.

Nothing I can say will help with your feelings, but hang in there. Take time to mourn and I just know you'll get your rainbow baby!!

princess apr said...

Aw, I'm sorry, Shannon. I know it's especially hard being around babies and just throwing the baby shower for your SIL. I do think things happen for a reason even if it results in a great big world of suck. You'll also find so many women have such similar stories and can offer so much support. I know my friend miscarried many times, but one was around Christmas and it was after she told everyone and after she heard the heartbeat, but then she gave birth to her wild baby girl who doesn't sleep.

Thinking of you and your family.

Ann Wolfe said...

I am so sorry for your loss. Sending prayers to you and your family.

Jamie said...

I am so sorry for your loss :(

Robbie said...

So sorry! I have a dear friend who has lost two children. After she miscarried the first time, she chose to find the joy, and decided that instead of looking at it like a loss, she was now going to look at as her child now has an extra angel looking over him. You and Hunter and your husband now have a very special extra angel looking over you.

Natalie H said...

I'm so sorry for your loss. Stay strong and continue to have faith

Stephanie said...

Oh Shannon, I'm so sorry to hear this. :( You sure have a positive outlook on a not-so-positive situation and I'm glad the doctor didn't see any reason you couldn't try again. Hugs to you!

Kathryn said...

I am so sorry to read this :( unfortunately I know all too well what you are going through- I miscarried twins during my first pregnancy. Good news is I did get pregnant again within 3 months and had my twin girls! I bet it will happen fast for you all again. I know it's so heartbreaking so will be thinking and praying for you!

Heather said...

I am so sorry for your loss, Shannon. Sending a big hug through the blogosphere.

Gaynor {Our Day by Design} said...

I'm so sorry to hear that; sending you lots of love & hugs. xxx

DanielleWoods91711 said...

I know we don't really know each other, except from when I have read your blog/ commented, or from IG. But I want you to know I have been praying for you for a while that you would have another baby. I don't know why but God just wanted me to keep you in my thoughts. Through this hard time you will be in my prayers as well.

Stephanie said...

Oh momma, my heart aches for you. I understand how hard that loss is and I am so sorry you're having to go through it. I'm so glad you shared to get additional love and support and prayers! My thoughts are with you as y'all grieve this little one

Angie said...

I am so so sorry to hear this!!! I also miscarried back in August. There is really nothing that can be said to make it better, I know you have probably hear the "time heals all wound" phrase several times before, but it really is true. I cried a lot at first and each day it got a little easier. I pray that we both will get blessed with pregnancies soon!

Miss Noggin Head said...

So sorry for your loss. I will keep you in my thoughts <3

SWMNBN said...

I am so, so sorry... I cannot imagine the heartbreak. Prayers for you my friend.

Kristen said...

So sorry to hear about your loss. Prayers for you and your family.

Laura said...

I am so so sorry to hear this Shannon. That must have been such a horrible and devastating experience. You will get through this and I have no doubt you will have a happier, exciting post to share with us all sometime this year. *hugs*

inthismoment said...

Shannon,
I rarely comment but this hits real close to home.
I too just miscarried. My second one.
I had my daughter when I was 17 ( against everyone's advice) & I think to myself now, what if I would have listened to everyone? I would have nothing.
Stay positive - like you said, chances are very likely that you WILL have another happy healthy baby.
My thoughts are with you. Hang in there lady !
xo

Sara McCarty said...

Oh honey. I'm saying a prayer for you and your family. Loss is hard, no matter how long or short your time together was. I think it's harder once you have a child because you know what you're missing out on. It's not a club that I ever want anyone to join, but there are a lot of us here that understand what you're going through and will be there to grieve with you. Hugs, mama.

Robyn Proctor Hinkle said...

I'm so sorry for you and your husband. I'll be praying for y'all. I can sympathize with your pain, and I know it's just not fair<3

Krysten Quiles said...

Shannon I am so incredibly sorry. I don't know what else to say but I hope you're feeling better and I'm thinking about you.