Wedding Mode

Yesterday was my last day of work until June 1st! I was basically running around like a crazy person trying to get as much done as I could before I left. Unfortunately my clients of course decided to wait until the last minute to give me everything I needed so to say I was stressed trying to finish everything is an understatement. I was so in the zone I completely missed my coworkers sneaking a cake into the conference room to surprise me with as a congratulations on the wedding!

Work had been a big part of my overall stress level so now that I don't have to worry about that anymore I can just be fully in wedding mode and enjoy these last few days.

After I finally left work I headed to my coordinator Kathy's house to drop off all my wedding stuff and go over the plan for the decor and timelime. She's going to organize everything and break up the tasks between her and the other two ladies that are helping.

I feel better about the weather situation, even though every site I check is completely different from the other but so far the worst forecast is predicting a 30%chance of a few showers which isn't horrible. Other sites are saying 0% chance so I guess all the anti rain dances are starting to work! However, I've actually gotten more at ease with the prospect of potentially having the wedding inside. We've bought a TON of candles so the inside will be full of soft candlelight and very romantic feeling which makes me happy.

As for the hair, it still hasn't really faded but the color is growing on me (no pun intended) and I found a new clip in hair piece that matches my color and is actually much better than the other hair piece I have. This will give me a LOT of extra body and curls so I'm happy with my hair now.

On tap for the next few days include:
Tanning
Getting my eyebrows done
Meeting with our photographers for a last meeting
Re-confirming with all my vendors
Wrapping the bridal part gifts
Getting my nails done
Start packing for the honeymoon
Clean the house
Try to bribe someone to take us to the airport Monday morning at 4am (any volunteers??)

I feel in a good place right now. I still have some nerves, mainly about everyone getting to where they need to be on time and everything running smoothly but I've done about as much as I can so I just need to let go and enjoy the process.

The next few days will be intense but I'm really excited!

R&R Ahead

Despite the crappy weather forecast and the new much darker 'do I'm trying to stay positive and upbeat about this weekend and our honeymoon in St. Lucia. I think a big part of my stress level is trying to finish up as much as I can at work before I'm out for a week and a half. I spent the first half of the month twiddling my thumbs and then of course right before I'm suppose to go on vacation a whole crap load of work lands in my lap. I feel like I'm moving 90 mph and going in circles trying to keep everything straight in my head.

In an effort to get pumped up for the honeymoon I've gone through my closet and started pulling out what I want to pack. So far my wardrobe consists of my 3 new bikini's (which hopefully the weather will give me the chance to wear) and a lot of sundresses, some old and some new. Currently this is what I have picked out-

My 3 new bikini's, the top one is from Target, the middle is from Old Navy and the bottom cost a one cost a total of $9 from H&M!! I felt that white bikini's were fitting for a honeymoon.

A cute little romper from Target. I was anti-rompers until I found this bad boy. It's SOOO comfortable and I thought would work great over a bikini or dressed up with some accessories.

I've had this dress for a while but haven't worn it yet, seemed fitting for St. Lucia

This is a new purchase from Old Navy and will be a nice daytime sundress to wear for lunch.

My mom bought this one for me, not sure from where. This will be a great little dinner dress.

I've had this dress for a while and thought it would be great for getting a bit dressier one night.

This is the white dress I wore to my first shower. I love this dress, it's so comfortable and will look great now that I have a tan.

In addition to these dresses I plan to pack some shorts and tank tops so that I'll have some more casual outfits in case we decide to go into town or take a tour though honestly I think most of our time will be spent lying on the beach or by our private pool. Or if the weather does turn out to be less than ideal I guess we'll just spend most of our time inside doing indoor activities...which I also have outfits for...though not for display on the blog!

I also bought Kristian these two new bathing suits at Old Navy this weekend. They were having a sale, each suit was $10!

Anti Rain Dance

So I'm asking for all my friends out there in Blogland to start doing an anti-rain dance for me. All weekend it showed this Saturday as being beautiful, only partly cloudy, low 80's with only a 20% chance of rain. NOW it's showing a 60% chance of thunderstorms and only 74 degrees. And this is now on weather.com. WTF?! I know the weather could and probably will change a million times between now and then but it's pissing me off. Yes we have a rain plan but I don't want to use the rain plan!

And to top it off I checked the weather for next week in St. Lucia and it shows showers everyday! Not Isolated Thunderstorms that will just pop up in the afternoon like in most warm climates but full on showers, 60% chance, EVERYDAY! What's the point of flying all the way to a Caribbean island and having my brother spend all that money if it's just going to rain everyday?! Looks like the 3 super cute bikini's I bought won't be getting much use.

To add to my stress level, I'm not a big fan of my hair right now. I dyed it this weekend so that it would be a nice shiny dark brown rather than a dull mousy medium brown and despite the fact that I dye my hair every few months this time it decided to suck up all the color and now it's basically black. Fantastic. Honestly it doesn't look horrible, the dye job itself is good it's just VERY dark and now the clip in hair extension I bought don't match. I've been washing my hair like crazy trying to get it fade. Does anyone have any tips for making it fade faster? I just want it a shade or two lighter but I'm afraid to do anything drastic and have it turn red or something.

So far this week isn't getting off to the best start, the only upside is I only have two more days of work before I'm out for two weeks.

Wed Det

Meet the newest member of our family:

Kristian found her (not sure how you tell the sex but he's convinced it's a she) while fishing today.

Her first name is Wed and middle name is Det...short for Wedding Debt...hahaha

Hopefully the cats don't use her as their latest toy.

Get it together people

Today is the first day that my wedding day is showing up on the 10 day forecast. That was the first thing I checked this morning, even before I logged into my email or Facebook. I realize that being 9 days out anything can still change weather wise but I wanted the comfort of seeing a big bright Sun over the forecast for May 22nd.

I logged onto weather.com and the forecast for the 22nd stands at AM clouds/PM sun, 20% chance of precipitation and 85 degrees. HOLLA! I then checked MSN weather's and they have the 22nd as Showers and 74 degrees. Umm what?! How do these two sites have totally different forecasts?! Don't they know that brides all over the area rely on them to predict their wedding day weather forecasts? Ugh. I'm sticking with weather.com, they won't let me down!

In other news my birthday celebration at home was very nice. I showed up to the house with a balloon hanging on our balcony.

Then found another balloon, flowers and a few small gifts from the boy.

He had some shrimp cocktail and chocolate covered strawberries (my fav) waiting for me when I walked in.

Then he cooked me an awesome dinner of crabcakes, and pasta with bacon and asparagus.

Followed by birthday cake of course

He bought me a few small gifts since money is tight but I totally appreciated the effort. We drank wine and discussed some wedding stuff and he gave me a great massage that put me to sleep. He's a good one.

1st Anniversary of my 29th Birthday

My 20's farewell tour has officially come to an end and as of today I'm a proud member of the Dirty Thirty club or more specifically it's my 30th BIRTHDAY!!!

Good news is I didn't find any grey hairs this morning (never mind the fact that I color my hair), I haven't broken a hip yet (though I banged the hell out of my leg getting into the car this morning) and I haven't been admitted to a nursing home (though I probably should be admitted to the nut house but that's another story).

Turning 30 really hasn't been that big of a deal to me. It could be the fact that most of my friends are already part of the club or maybe the fact that planning this wedding has kept me so pre-occupied that I've barely remembered I even had a birthday coming (and anyone that knows me KNOWS that's unusual).

I guess there is a part of me that is a bit sad that my 20's are over and now I have to be all grown up and shit but to be honest most of my 20's (mainly the ages of 23-28) weren't all that great anyway. I did a lot of growing and learning but I feel like my life is finally starting to settle a bit which is comforting.

This decade is going to kick ass and be full of so many wonderful events like getting married and hopefully having kids, moving to a bigger place and traveling that it's hard not to be excited about my new age bracket.

As for birthday plans, we'll I'm throwing a pretty kick ass party in 10 days so I think for tonight it's okay to take it easy a bit. Oh and Kristian did offer to buy me McDonald's and even spring for extra Hot Mustard sauce. He spoils me!

Why my wedding won't be the best day of my life

One thing that truly annoys me is when a woman says her wedding will be the best day of her life. Really? The BEST day of your ENTIRE life. Well I don't know about them but I would hate to think that my life had peaked after only 30 short years. If that's the case what do I have left to look forward to?

Don't get me wrong, my wedding day will definitely be ONE of the best days of my life, easily top 5 I'm sure. However, it will share a space with many other days like the day I graduated from college, the day Kristian proposed, and the day(s) that our kid(s) are born. And if we're ever lucky enough to finally win that Mega Millions lottery I'm sure that will be a pretty damn good day.

I just feel it puts too much pressure on a bride to try to convince her that her wedding should be the best day of her life. It makes any of those tiny hiccups and mis-haps that may happen all the more upsetting because they have the potential to ruin the BEST day of your life!

Another issue that irritates the shit out of me is when women say that they want their wedding to be the best wedding their guests have ever been too. I will say right now my wedding will probably not be the best wedding most of my guests have ever been to. Do I hope it's a beautiful, fun wedding that my guests have a kickass time at? Absolutely. Am I striving to make it the best? Not really. I would seriously hope their own wedding would be considered the best wedding they've ever been to. With that said I would be pretty freaking bummed if our wedding was the worst wedding they've been too but I don't think that will be the case.

I really believe that brides need to have more realistic expectations about their big days. Your wedding day is an amazing, wonderful, joyous occasion but if you are putting all your happiness eggs into your wedding basket you could end up disappointed or suffering from a bad case of post-wedding depression.